Closer

"It's not hard to fall, and I don't wanna lose.."

~Canonball

I've been to so many relationships but I've never been the cause of any break up, not even close to it. I've read one time, whether be it a joke or for real, that when a third party enters into the scene of a relationship, it is a way of showing you that you're not meant for each other. I'll leave the thinking, and judgement, to you.

But what about marriage? Morality? Decency? Self-worth? Respect? Does love conquer? Does love rejoice in pain? Does it thrive on selfishness? Sacrifice? Martyrdom. Right, from wrong. But what is right anyway when it comes to love? Isn't love always right regardless of the situation? When does love become wrong? Does it ever become wrong? Love can never be wrong.

I am, right now, confused about something. Whether to continue loving or to just let go. I did not expect things to turn out this way. Maybe that's how love happens. It just does - to anyone of us. Unexpectedly, I fell. But where will this lead me? When and where am I suppose to stop?

Maybe I shouldn't stop. I shouldn't stop loving because it's not wrong to love. I will love from a distance. From a place where I will not hurt anyone else - but myself. I once said, "I will settle for the closest way I can get to you..." Maybe that's what I am supposed to do. Love is not selfish. It shouldn't be.

One thing I can't say right now is "goodbye".